Year 33
“But as it is written:
“Eye has not seen, nor ear heard,
Nor have entered into the heart of man
The things which God has prepared for those who love Him.”
When was the last time I wrote a blog post? It has been so long, but we are here. How have you been? I am doing quite well. It’s Wednesday night and I am sitting at my desk at work, drinking a cup of peppermint tea and I felt a nudge in my fingers. Let’s talk!
This past Saturday I turned thirty three years old. I vlogged my weekend, but decided not to post. I honestly wanted to keep that weekend a little sacred. April was a hard month. I endured a lot. From hardships to hurt from loved ones. God corrected me while extending grace. God showed me where I was on my journey and why. Even though April was hard it was indeed a turning point.
So, we are in May and light is beaming in. Light is shining on me because I am celebrating this month. My Jesus year (33) has arrived and so did Le’nae. Another version of me was waiting for me on May 13, 2023. As I started this new tradition of writing a letter to myself each birthday is when the door opened for this new version to be seen. While I was writing I noticed the old Le’nae inching towards the new version. Not a perfect woman, but a woman who knows the truth. A woman who knows who she is and whose she is. A woman who is resilient. A woman who understands that she is a masterpiece and yet a work in progress. A woman that knows gratefulness rebukes discontentment, comparison, and inferiority. A woman who knows her patterns. A woman who knows she has the authoritative power to break any pattern, spirit, and bondage that no longer serves her. A woman who knows her purpose. A woman who knows her strengths and her weaknesses. A woman who knows her personality and character are a gift from God and should not be boxed in. A woman who knows what true love is and what is not. A woman who knows and understands the importance of letting people go for the sake of her wellbeing. A woman who knows how to feel her emotions, but not let them impact her. A woman who knows that apart from God she can do nothing. A woman who knows that learning and unlearning is a part of the process. A woman who knows she is accepted. A woman who knows that God will vindicate her. A woman who knows that God will fight for her. A woman who knows that God will justify her. A woman who knows that she is favored by God, and a woman who knows that restoration has many forms; but nonetheless it is here.
As I closed out the letter I also closed many chapters of my life. I stepped into the room where that new version of Le’nae was and I became one with her. I didn’t turn around! I simply embraced the “new” ahead. I was looking out of the bus window on the way back home from New York and tears streamed down my face. I felt the change on the inside. I felt a spark on the inside. I was proud of myself. I did not stay in the tunnel of confusion, hurt, anxiety, and self pity. No, I grabbed ahold of my fathers hand and He brought me out. I am so proud of myself for not resisting Him. Yes, the last 30 days were hard, but it was intentional and vital. I needed to be repositioned. I needed to see who I was, what I was doing, what I was condoning, and much more. On May 13, 2023 I crossed over. I still have work to do within myself, but I did get out of the cocoon. I am flying in newness. Flying in new depths of love for God. Flying in new depths of love for myself and others. Flying in new depths of perspective. Flying with a new vision. Flying with a new mindset. Flying in new potential. Flying stronger and higher than I ever thought I could. I can fly now because I am no longer resisting God and what He is doing in my life. I can fly now because I am living a surrendered life. I can fly now because I believe in what I know to be true about who God is and who I am in Him. I have no more weight on me and in me. I can fly now, and that is what makes year 33 so different from the past 32 years of life! I came out of my comfortable place (the cocoon) and I am exercising my wings to go higher in life!
This is why I wanted to savor this day. It meant so much to me personally to embrace this new year and chapter of my life all by myself. I needed to hear what God was saying concerning me and my future. I needed to reflect in peace and away from chaos. A lot of new things are taking off in my life, and for the first time in my life I actually feel equipped to take them on. This process has birthed so much out of me, and I am grateful for it!
Thank you for reading. I actually missed writing! I hope you have a great weekend. Love ya!
Sermons for your ear
These words helped me understand where I am in my journey and why! I pray that as you listen to these sermons that they will hit you in your spirit and you will get what you need. May the seeds hit good soil!
Before you go!
If you have seen any of my social platforms you know I am finally moving forward with my book club! The Latte and Letters Book Club is open for registration. Please hit the link below if you wish to join. I am closing it at the end of this month!
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